Life....GIVE ME A F'n break!

Life!

Ugh!

Life!

Life gives us a purpose.

Life gives us a reason to live.

Life, unfortunately does not give us time to take in what life has been so faithful to give.

We do not have infinite time to take in what life has given us.

We live life day by day, all eyes watching.  All eyes watching EVERY mistake, EVERY accomplishment one has taken.

We live life day by day, ready to take on the new day with hopes of making it our best, one to be thankful for, one to have meaning, one to have purpose.

We live life day by day, you never know what day is your last.

You never know what day you have been called.

Live life day by day, to the fullest, to the extreme…the extreme of leaving that imprint.  The imprint of who you are, what you stand for, what you want to be remembered for.

Live life day by day!

Life, ugh????

Life, OMG, I love the life I am living!

You are the only one that decides how you live your life.

Figure it out….quick, because time DOES NOT STAND STILL!

We move, we move.

We move so fast, our breaths cannot keep pace with or own.

We move so fast, we need to be ready.

We move so fast that we need to put a stop to the clock and take in what life has to offer and truly take in all the wonderful things life has to offer.  It is up to us to understand what role we play in the game of life!

I AM!

My pulse is racing.

I am a cheetah running miles faster than my heartbeat can catch up to.

I am that lioness, armed and geared, ready to take on anyone and anything that threatens my pack.

I am a twig, one that breaks when the weather is too much to handle according to Mother Nature.

I am the fierce wind that engulfs all in its path and I don’t hold back, regardless of what’s is ahead.

I am that light at the end of the tunnel that reminds me there is a way out.

I am ….I am….

What am I?

Who am I?

I am…

Let it out,

Let it out,

The pain held so deep within, the pain that resurrects the true me is so wanting to escape.

The pain held so deep within wants and searches for an outlet.

An outlet of acceptance,

An outlet of inner peace.

The Hell I have been living, deep within is eating pieces of me away, bite by bite, gulp by gulp, day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, second by second. 

I need a release.

This can’t be how life was meant to play out for me. 

Memories, painful memories eating away at me, slowly killing me.

I need a release.

I need to feel.

I need to feel the happiness.

I need to feel the pain.

Until I release the pain from my being, I am not and will not be at peace.

I thought,

Yes, I thought.

I thought I was cured from all the insanities of this world.

I thought I was cured from the pain brought onto me.

I thought I was cured from all of my insecurities, all my doubts, but I must have been fooled.

That is the story of my life.  

Wishful thinking?

Wishful beliefs of a better life to be?

When and how will the pain disappear?

Hmmmm, when I accept my past.

When I accept it is what it is and I am in control of how I allow it to control me! 

 I am in control!

We often forget how strong we are.  We often forget that we hold ourselves at a higher standard than others.  It is the self-expectations that enable us to  fight through all the pain, all the agony, all the bullshit that provides us with excuses of why, how and should of and could of.  It is these times that our subconscious helps us decide that we are bigger than, better than those self-expectations.  We hold these self-expectations as our bible because sometimes…it is the only thing that keeps us fighting for survival.  It is these expectations that keep us breathing.  It is the only thing that reminds us that we are human and we make mistakes, but our mistakes do not and should not determine our destiny.  It is our goals and aspirations that will push us to the next level of success.   It is our support system that will remind us we are imperfect and that the imperfections are what guides us to push ourselves just a little more, a little harder, enough to cross over that road block.

 I am that fierce cheetah running faster than my heartbeat can catch up to.  I am a fierce lioness protecting its pack.  I am the wind that engulfs all in its path and doesn’t hold back, regardless of what is ahead.  I am that light at the end of the tunnel that reminds me there is a way out!

Why, because it allows me to weather the storms and survive through them, no matter how fierce they are.  It allows me the view of a better me because what is life without goals, dreams and aspirations of being better than?  Why?  Keep asking yourself and don’t stop until you feel the answer within, pounded in your temples, your heart, each and every bone and muscle.  Keep asking yourself, you will be amazed!

This is what keeps me going every day. 

I remember I am whatever I want myself to be!

I am!

I Define Me!

It is just one of those days when I am feeling all so good!

It is just one of those days when I feel like I am somebody!

It is just one of those days when I feel like I can make a difference, I have a purpose!

I take this opportunity for others that are feeling low today to grab on and attach themselves to somebody else’s happiness.

It is one of those days that I believe that others can have a positive impact on each and every one of us…if we want it to.

We all go through our up and downs, but there is a higher being that keeps us going throughout the darkness that engulfs our every sense of self!

It is one of those days that I have let go of all my insecurities, all the pain, all of the barriers that have held me prisoner in my own mind.

Who are others to define who I am?

I define myself…as my cousin has labeled her social media networks…

I define my successes, my failures, my road to happiness!

I define my reason for living.

If you don’t like it, step the hell back!

You do not define me as I am too much in control of my destiny.

I am the light that burns so fiercely beneath my wings!

I am the light that entraps others to join in my fight to everlasting happiness.

I am the light.

Stop me, fight me, try, just try to hold me back!

You will lose as I am the one and only one that defines me!

Uplift me, hold me and embrace me!

Give me the strength to appreciate and love the person I have become, because I am fierce!

Call as you may, because you do not define me!

I define all aspects of my being and I am all too powerful once I embrace the being I am meant to be.

You know not know of my past, you may assume, because assuming makes an ass of you and me!

You may not know of my past, but trust and believe, I will surprise you, each one of you and each and every time. 

I am the true definition of success.

Why?

Because I define me!

I define my place on this Earth.  Mother Nature dislikes competition, so you know this is a fight to the end.

This is a fight for survival, my survival, survival to be at peace, survival to be one with myself.

No competition because I am only competing with myself to become the best woman that MY higher being has challenged me to be!

I define me, not you!  If you are not in my support circle, stop, back-up and run.  Run away, far and fast because your non-support is nothing but a deterrent, and “I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR THAT!”

I define that!  Support or back up!

I define that! 

I define me!

I define where I should be at this very moment, each and every moment, no regrets, no questions, NOTHING! 

I DEFINE ME!