A Moment

A moment of peace,

A moment of calmness,

A moment of self-understanding,

A moment of self-acceptance,

A moment of self-love.

How beautiful that feeling is.

From deep within, penetrating every part of my being,

It is one of those days I am so in love with myself,

The feeling is so intense, I have satisfied myself, no help needed, because self-love is stronger than no other.

It is one of those days I am at peace.

It is one of those days I take in what life has to offer.

It is one of those days I love the view from where I am standing.

It is one of those days when I believe in who I am, believe in what I can give, believe I have a purpose.

Those days sometimes seem a million miles away, but today, I can feel it so deep within, call it prideful, call it sinful, call it what you may, I am alive at this moment.

I am happy at this moment.

I am satisfied who I am at this moment,

Nothing anyone can say at this very moment will take that feeling away.

Funny thing about it, the happiness is simply an appreciation for what I have at this moment in my life.  The people, the love, the joy of seeing my successes in the children I birthed, seeing that I am a proud momma, I am a proud wife.  If there are any successes that can overcome any failure that I might have felt, they are no longer.

The wind blows the negativity away,

The rain washes the sins away,

The sun shines through the grayness that encompasses the darkness that strangles me.

Out of the darkness I rise,

Out of the darkness I have surrendered,

Out of the darkness I have released the little girl from within,

I have rocked her,

I have wiped the tears away,

I have washed the sins away that she has held deep down within.

I am at peace because I am calm,

I have self-understanding and self-acceptance because I have self-love.

How do we overcome the pain day after day?

We don’t, it is impossible to run from it every day, we forgive, but never forget

We remind ourselves that forgiveness releases the demons from within.

Forgiveness is for our own self-preservation.

Forgiveness is our own rise to redemption

Today I have overcome the pain because I have allowed myself to forgive.

The memories, the pain will return.
 
At those times I must remember to care for the child that is within in so much pain.

I must rise out of the darkness, let the sun shine on my body.

I must let the tears run down my face, let the water drip from my body as I release the pain deep from within.

I must forgive because I enjoy being at peace, I enjoy the feeling of calmness, I enjoy the feeling of self-understanding, I enjoy the feeling of self-acceptance, I enjoy the feeling of self-love.

I must forgive to allow myself happiness, because the feeling I have today is so precious (with a tear of happiness falling from my chin, true happiness showing deep from within, showing through my eyes and my smile).  Yes, I did good today!