My Once Is My Now

03/03/2016 (Thursday) @ 4:32 PM

 

Once I was a young Girl Scout selling hundreds of cookies to the neighbors.

Once I dressed up in my uniform proudly marching to the beat of the Girl Scout songs echoing through the crowds for all to hear.

Once I crawled out of my sleeping bag, out of the tent, into the frigid air to the latrines in the woods.

Now, I reminisce while looking at all the photos and remember the memories that fill my heart with love and joy.

 

Once I was pained with staying up all night working hard to complete two high school papers,.

Once I begged and pleaded with my mother and administrator to graduate a year early from high school, just because.

Once I graduated high school before my brother because my name was first.

Now, I realize how stubborn I was, but so glad I set my mind to be different and accomplish something that set the stage for future students to be something ordinary,

 

Once I took care of anyone that needed help or everything that needed to be done.

Once I baked cakes and brownies for every holiday, every year, for each one of my children's classes for their birthdays for every year until we moved to North Carolina.

Once I cooked breakfast for kids that showed up at my door before school, no questions asked.

Now, I ask myself what can I do to take care of myself.

 

Once I did not fight back.

Once I was afraid.

Once I was lost and became hopeless.

Now I have been found with the help of divine intervention.

 

I have learned to be grateful and open up my heart to the unknown and understand that while I might not have an answer today, my God has a purpose for me.

 

In time, not my time.

His time, my purpose will be revealed and I must be ready by hearing His words spoken to me though other people, my prayers, and my writings.

 

My once is my now.