A Good Day!

So, today is a new day.  Everyday is a new day for me.  Not literally speaking as a new day of the week.  It is a new day that I decided I am going to wake up and have a good day, a productive, an okay day regardless of all the crazy thoughts that invade my scrambled mind of mixed emotions.  

Today I am able to go back to my intensive therapy program even though I missed three in a row.  Today I am happy for a new day to get healthier.  For that today is a good day for me.

Even if I have moments of self-pity, detachment, and the fight in me is tired, today is a good day.  I have something to look forward to.  I have a moment of clarity that I want to get better.  I am allowed to have those bad moments.  However, it is not how many bad moments I have, it is my willingness to get better and get back to the old me.

Today is a good day because have had a day of focus, a day of believing I am worthy to be happy and the belief that I will get better.

As I remind myself, not just daily, but sometimes hour by hour, minute by minute, and sometime by second, I am right where I should be at this very moment and I have to have faith.  It is not my job to question, just my job to fight for myself, just as much as my lived ones that I deserve to be happy, healthy and forging.my past does not define me.  My actions, my perseverance and fight is.

Today is a good day!