LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!! I AM IN PAIN!!!

Hold me, caress me, tell me you love me!

Those are the words I have been searching for.

Searching for years, and I have yet to feel them , to hear them.

Say you love me!

Say you care for me!

Say you are my one and only!

Tell me you will not allow harm to unto me!

Tell me I am the one and only!

Hold me, caress me, tell me you love me!

I feel the pain in between!

I feel the rejection of true love!

I feel the rejection of purity!

I feel the love of innocence!

Within moments, my life has changed!

I am no longer able to trust!

I am no longer to believe!

I can only believe that I am worthy of something greater because I have screamed and yelled nothing else!

I have only screamed the cry for help!

I have only screamed that my cries have been heard.

My pain, my heartache has been understood, no retribution, simple understanding of my heartache.

Pray with me!

Pray for me!

Pray that I have answered other young girl’s prayers!

It is the sickness we do not want to address!

It is the sickness we do not want to correct!

It is the sickness we do not want to address because it is the devil itself!

WAKE UP, I AM THE SUVIVOR, WHAT ABOUT THOSE THAT ARE LESS UNFORTUNATE?

WHAT HAPPENS TO THOSE THAT HAVE NO VOICE BECAUSE THEY ARE THE UNSPOKEN? 

They are the ones that work day by day and have emptied their hearts of the pain they have endured!

Peace be with you, I understand.

When others cannot accept or turn a blind eye, I understand, I relate, I cry with you, night and day, stay strong, there is a tomorrow, there is a compromise!

Close your eyes, accept that not all pain can be corrected, understand that your pain provides empowerment to others!  Pray and peace be with you!

Peace be with you!

FUCKKKKKK, I can’t take it, it is not fair and I am tired of being the spoken of a few!  I want to have a meaning!

I want to have a purpose!

I am tired, I am done…why care when no one else does?   I have positioned my children, my future, I have done what I have supposed to have done.  I am proud to be a part of the next generation.  Leave me, let me, allow me to be at ease, allow me to do what I was meant to do!  Allow me to make a mark that I most likely not would not have been able to make!   Allow me to take a stand with no reservation, allow me to engulf the wishes of my children….I have raised them, I have molded them, allow me to let my child be the leader he is meant to be…at this moment, at this very moment!

I am so tired, as I lay me down……beat me, push me, tell me, repeatedly, my role is not done….stay with me, pray with me, mediate with me, remind me my self worth…just a few moments…BREATH , BREATH, HAVE FAITH, KNOCK THE DEVIL FROM MY GRIPS!  THANK YOU LORD! 

Not religious, this is truly a moment of self-preservation!!!!!!!

Interesting how things work itself out!!!