Why Can't I Just Get Better?

I can't just get better because the flashbacks and nightmares come at me all at once.

I can't get better because I am scared all of the freaking time!

I can't get better because I am so used to the feeling of feeling scared, I no longer know the feeling of feeling good, of feeling safe.

SO!

To all the people that pass judgement on me, you have NO IDEA OF THIS FEELING!

YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO JUDGE ME!  Walk a mile in my shoes, YOU WILL NEVER MAKE IT!

Not because you care, but because you think it is okay to laugh a my deficiencies!

You feel it is okay to laugh at my inability to hold it all together!

You are not my friend!

You are NOT my family's friend.

What we need is support, love and someone who is willing to weather this fight together!

What we need in our lives, our home is someone to passes no judgement just accepts, whether agrees or not and is there when we are falling.

Why?

Because that is a TRUE friend.  That is a friend that is looking out for the entire family and does not pass judgement.  Might pass sadness and anger, but is willing to support to the end, no matter what.

Why?

Because they have proved themselves before, they are just having a hard time and need the push to work it through the pain and heartache.

If you are not that person, stay out of our lives, you will reap the web you sow!  All hatred, no love!!