11/13/2015 (Friday) @ 2:15 AM
I have only known you by the name of Alex, but we both know that is not your real name. But that is okay because you are still being evicted. For way too long I have allowed you space in my head you are not worthy of. I am taking back control of my life. I am taking back the power you took from me repeatedly.
My husband, my children, and others that love me know everything. Your threats and attempts at blackmail no longer carry any weight. They already know. They know everything. They know how you repeatedly violated me. They even know what you look like and what you do for a living. Every time you even think of riding into my neighborhood, know that everyone knows what type of truck you drive.
Since the beginning of this insane, demented craziness, you have had this emotional and physical control of me. You intentionally had wicket deceit in your mind from the beginning. Through manipulation, physical, and sexual violation, you literally mind fucked me for ten months. Never in my life would I ever had thought someone could and would set out to be so evil and hurtful. Never would I have thought I could not be strong enough to fight a monster like you.
Guess what though! This is your official eviction notice...I am cleansing my mind, body, and soul of you. Step by step this will happen. It is time to peel the onion, layer by layer.
Numerous times you felt the need to videotape and take pictures of me, all while raping me. You would force me to drink that disgusting, beyond legal proof of liquor and then mix it with a drug that would knock me out just as you repeatedly told me, so you could reminisce raping me, but it looking like I was a willing partner. Then, you had the audacity to use those against me to threaten and blackmail me. But again, guess what? My husband knows all about it. So, next time you even think about sending copies to my husband addressed directly to him, we both will be waiting, and off to the sheriff's office we will go...it is a felony to distribute pornographic material. And those threats of putting them online...I dare you...I am not afraid anymore!
It took way too long, but you violating me is making me stronger! Hitting me, choking me, screwing me while forcing me to hold that gun of yours to make me "submit," that happened way too many times. But today, those experiences have finally made me stronger. I am ready to fight back now. The way I see it, if I am going to die, I am going to die fighting. I refuse to allow to be treated that way. Not sure if you really would have ever pulled that trigger. Now, I am calling your bluff if ever faced with that again.
Also, since you had become so skilled on stalking me and my family, I am giving you an open invitation, I am daring you to come anywhere in my comfort zone. I will be ready for you. Everyone will know that you are where you shouldn't be. I will make a scene so big that law enforcement will be called to come get your ass. Most likely, like always, you will have your rape bag, and no ID with you, and possibly your gun on you. This will be perfect because they will ask you for your ID. If you don't have it, they will take you in. If by chance you did have your ID with you, I will finally find out your true identity. Order of protection will immediately be requested.
I may not be emotionally at a point that I can move past this insanity, but I am ready to do whatever I have to do to be in a place that I can be at peace with this entire situation.
I am working on no longer blaming myself for whatever happened for those ten months. I will get to that point with the love and support of my team. That team includes my angry husband who will do whatever he has to in order to protect his family.
Alex, or should I say whomever you are, you have been evicted. Good riddance. I am worthy of a happy and a healthy life!
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