We Are Not In Authority To Judge!

Do we forget our own story that brought us to our breaking point?
Do we forget the pain we felt?
You know, our pain or spiritual and mental anguish and breakdown?
We so bad wanted people to stop judging us, we definitely were professionals at judging ourselves.

But we do forget.
We all are imperfect beings.
We have unfortunately been on both sides, judging others or being judged.

I am angry!
I am hurt!
I am disappointed and discouraged!
My wall is up, again.
Cemented deep down in the ground, determined to keep it up for good this time.

My facade to the world is that I am strong, I am courageous, strong-willed, a fighter.
Always in position for battle, determined to be a fierce warrior that clearly wears proudly, "don't fuck with me, I am not the one!"  "please, try me, please give me a reason!"
I am trying real hard to keep from having to show you my definition of "ghetto professional."
Trust and believe, that side has no problem showing itself!
Please, don't judge!

Truth be told...
I am afraid.
I fear for my safety.
I fear for my life.

I hold on with my faith.
I hold onto the love and support of my husband, children, family, and friends.

I am not delusional.
I am not in denial.
The problem, which is clearly yours, not mine; you don't know my story, my testimony.
You don't care to know.
And that is perfectly fine with me.
So, do not sit in judgment, you have no right if you are not compassionate to get to know me and my testimony.
I will be a better person with you not in my circle of serenity.
Just do not judge me!

Keep your snickering, comments, and opinions of me out your mouth.
Disrespectful, immature, and...how old are you again?
Sorry, had to add that question, to bring laughter and a smile to my current anger and frustration.

However, maybe something for your think about...
Is your need to judge and shame me because there is something you see in me that you would like to embody?
It might be what I call me façade, but something you obviously see that you want...
Something you might want to reflect on...sleep on.

I call it my façade.
On my good days, I do feel strong, empowered, strong-willed, and courageous.
Along with living each day remembering to be grateful, I aim to be all those "facades" AND compassionate, inspirational, and motivational.
I work hard to not sit in judgment.
Sometimes I fail at this and I work hard to make amends.

Each of us have our own story.  Our own testimony.
Each of us are on our own paths.
Some of us get to our destination quicker than others.
That is okay.
For me, this is a season, preparing me for my next one.

I do not have the same story as yours.
I do have compassion for you and others.
Your story, your testimony, your transformation; it all inspires me.  It gives me hope, pushes me to fight harder.
I thank you!

Your judgment is hurtful and painful to me.
Please think about that the next time you feel the need to do so.
That one person you might judge in the future, and they are witness to it or overhear you, it can be damaging.
Unfortunately for those in their weakness, it can be deadly.
Don't judge!

My faith keeps me in a good place.
I thank my God for that ability to continue to have faith.
Please, don't judge me!